Echyempties' Journals

late nite write

i cant sleep. Its already 4 in the morning. And I guess those stupid coffee keep me awake. And hell yeah, thats the cause.
My mind is full of watching grey's anatomy over and over and over so maybe i can find something in those series to pushed me to become a great surgeon someday.
The other thing is, read books. There is so many book i havent read in my book case. I bought those for about last year. Im in the middle of reading lovely bones rite now. Beside that i think about my med text book. I want to read it, study it and understand it more, cuz ive been wasting my time didnt pay attention much when i was in the class. Thats why i dont really mastering all of the subject. Im curious why i graduated. Well,Maybe read again the text book of anatomy and pshysic can help me to build my confident. Other books is mind mapping, i want to sharpen my brain cuz i have problem to remember things lately.
The other thing is going online. Check my socialite site, and im sure by now there is already so many stuff right there i have to reply. I have 5 socialite site for god sake.
And the last thing on my mind is being skinny. I want to be 43 kg. Thats why i didnt want to eat lately. Im surely got this eating disorder.

Read, watch TV, online and sneezing

dear diary...

yesterday as usual, i just laid down on my bed, tought bout anything i couldnt figure out what... listening to JUNOâ�™s soundtrack, tried to read the Lovely Bones chapter by chapter but im not in a right mood. Actually the PMS is killing me, i didnt eat anything so there is bunch of pain things going on my stomach. i wanna go online but why it feels so empty lately, something is missing and im not sure what it is.

At nite, I went out with my girlâ�™s and we eat some salad and drink coffee, but I ordered green tea milk this time.. I love green tea.. we just chat and hangout. Nothing much.

And today is really hot, im sweating like hell. I woke up cuz my boyfriend called me, and keep telling me to wake up tho Im still sleepy, what his problem? He just enjoy to see me mad, he told me im cute when im angry..STUPID!.â�¦ but guess what im soooo freaking crazy cuz im sneezing all dayâ�¦ I hate my nose. most of my life I got this allergic things.. not just the dust but weatherâ�¦ and cold water of courseâ�¦ I cant stand itâ�¦med didnâ�™t make this better.

I watched Bad Girls Club on channel V, and its really a fun reality show. Watching someone being beat up, attack their room mate, and those stupid cat fightâ�¦ Im sure enjoy it.

Some time my boyfriend is a jerk but I love him tho. And I understand he is with his family rite now, spending his holiday and he didnâ�™t need me much at the momentâ�¦. *sad

I really miss him to miss me againâ�¦

Thatâ�™s it for today, nothing much to tell. I got so many good friends on Buzznet, Vampire Freaks, Myspace and Facebook. Now I fallin love with those site.. Friendster is sooooo last year.LOL..

What is ur fav socialite site?

this is how it feels

dear diary...
i havent write you for so long im so sorry..
i was really tired lately and i was too lazy to write anything with my confusing mind..online is the last thing on my mind..
i didnt eat much lately, i just lying on my bed, staring at the wall, and slept all day..
well, actually i really miss someone..but, its ok tho..this is the right thing to do..(you do understand what im saying rite?)
i try to change everything and think bout this sad stuff, but i realize i actually want him always around, i want him so much and it kills me..
as long i live, i will always think bout him eventho i dont know where he is now...(if you read this..i just want you to know that i miss you.but im ok!)
This is how it feels, When you wait for a call that never comes and waking up 'cause you miss someone?
have you ever feel it?

its a waste of time, being sad

i dont know what to write lately..
im so tired...
but, i try to make one..
i got my first bachelor degree last thursday...
i was really bored, i got myself aslept in the middle of the dean speech..STUPID.. at friday, i went to my bestfriend village and we spend a nite there, we took some stupid pic, and i cant wait to go back there,..
today...not so good..i found my self jealous with this stupid girl who commented my boyfriend page on friendster, and not just that, one of my precious friend was mad at me, and until now i still cant figure out why he so mad at me... i tot he already over with me, but, i dont know, i think i just hurt him again.
thats all,..
now i just sit infront of my laptop and rep comments, pathetic..but i rather do this than cry myself asleep like i used to do...
im getting stronger everyday...im still sad tho...
what can make u feel really sad?

long time didnt post any journal...

been bussy this whole day's..
im tryin to finish my college paper work, but im so exhausted..
i just want to go sleep and doing anything beside studying...
i just watched so many movie lately...the dark knight, sex and the city, nim's island, bucket list...emmmm and edward scissorshand's and its the greatest movie i ever saw...LOL..jonny deep is really hot...
and i just bought books..its twilight and lovely bones...i LOVE BOOK's...
just tell me what is ur fav movie and book..!

who i want to meet

Did you know my friend, this morning I didnâ�™t sleep since the day before. At 7 0â�™clock I have to go to the college and look out for the new student at my faculty. They are so many of them. They are new medical student, general doctorâ�™s, dentistâ�™s and nurseâ�™s.

Its all done at 1 pm. After that, me and my friends went to the mall, we ate fried rice and went home. I slept at the restaurant while waiting for the order to came, cuz I was very tired. After I got home, I slept until 8 pm. I woke up, and tought bout my paperwork. Next week is the exam. But I didnâ�™t do anything until now. I didnâ�™t even start to write the power point. Gosh, im not in a mood. Im really tired and still lazy to study. But, next week is my last exam for this year, and after that ill be free until January. I donâ�™t know who can make my day, even my boyfriend feel so boring rite now, I still love him tho.

I have to start tonight. But, I think I know why im so stressed out today.cuz I start to gain weight againâ�¦LOLâ�¦ yeah, I get fat when im stress.

I talked bout this with my boyfriend, and I feel a lot better.

Now, I think bout the vacation plan on oktober and who is the friend I want to meet there.

First stop, bali.. Iâ�™ll go here with my college friend, I think I just want to have fun with them, and maybe meet up with my sk8 dude such as yogi, mikha, kubon, etc. After bali, ill go to Jogja. I want to meet up with my twins, agra and nanu. After that, Iâ�™ll go to Jakarta, I want to meet up with nando, Erika my myspace friend, tammi, lizna, tria and maybe vic. Thatâ�™s the most important friend. if I have more time, I want to meet with the boys, danan if he still on vacation, komeng, abe, rully, mine, miel, dedi, or other sk8 friend there. The last stop is bandung. This is the most important place I have to go, cuz I want to see my beloved boyfriend jeff there. Beside him, I want to meet with travis, kâ�™sarah and kâ�™darell and jeffâ�™s friend, and well maybe my friendster friend, nyuw, kaisha, delly, etcâ�¦

So much people, and so much plan, but so little time.

the most important things to do is to finished my power point.

Well, I guess thatâ�™s it for today.

See ya next postâ�¦

Byeeeeeeeâ�¦.

yummy tiramisu...

As usual, I woke up 1 pm..actually today I have meeting with my college friend, its about the new student at my faculty, but im too lazy to open my eyes and got there..LOLâ�¦

After I woke up, I took a shower, and talk to my boyfriend at camfrog. After that im browsing the internet again. Hhhmm..

At 8pm, my girl friend took me and we hang out at OhhLaLa, a cup of latte and tiramisu. i think, this is the best tiramisu in town, really yummy!!! We just talked and talked and talked about anything there.. i met with my highschool best friend. i really miss her, and im happy to see her. she is with one of my college friend, im curious if there is something between them..LOL.. im not sure.. well after we have a lil chit chat i went home, my friend drove me home and, I got home about 10.30pm.i still had time to watched gossip girl and eat some noodles, and I think now before I go to sleep I want to chat with my boyfriend again at camfrog..

Btw, tomorrow I have to wake up early cuz the freshman need they senior..LOL..

Take care for now.. im happy, there is no drama todayâ�¦ im so over with thatâ�¦

Well, tell me if there is great things happen at you todayâ�¦

See ya!!!

xoxo

im happy too see my boyfriend face at camfrog...

Today I woke up late againâ�¦

Actually I still wanna sleep, but here in my town the weather getting soooo hot at 1 pm.. I sweating and really want to shower, soooo I didnâ�™t continue my sleepâ�¦lol..

After that, my boyfriend called me and ask me if I want to online at camfrog againâ�¦ yeah, Id love tooo..i really want to see my boyfriend face everyday..thanx to camfrog for give me the chance..LOL..

After that, most of my time wasted on editing all my socialite siteâ�¦

Well, this is my opinion bout every socialite site..

First thing, friendster: all my friend here, even my boyfriendâ�¦ so, I have to checked it everytimeâ�¦ lot of Indonesia and philipine here, and fakers tooâ�¦ I cant delete my account here, cuz, I got lot of friend hereâ�¦ and haters hereâ�¦LOLâ�¦

Second is, myspace: I love being in this site, cuz sooo much holywood celebrity have account here, and of course my fav band tooâ�¦and they not fake account, its they official myspace siteâ�¦

Third is, buzznet: I made this account cuz I loveee hanna beth. But after couple of week in this account, I found there is sooo much fun here.. and most of member here are female, so its kool to have so many new girlfriend at buzznetâ�¦ I just have 3 indonesian friend there, and I love it that wayâ�¦

The fourth is, myspace: scary site for people who didnâ�™t usual with dark and gothic people.. people here not too nice like in other site.. I donâ�™t know, maybe myfriend at this site not much, thatâ�™s why I feel this way.. hhmmm.. I got 4 good friend there tho, and its really funâ�¦

The last is, facebookâ�¦this is the most complicated socialite site I ever sign up.. I hate with all of those stu

its 7 in the morning and i havent sleep since yesterday

GOOD MORNING CYBER WORLDâ�¦

Its already 7 in the morning, but I didnâ�™t sleepâ�¦

Yesterday I went to my friend at cafÃ©, she order some chocolate and me French fries and glass of green teaâ�¦we just talk bout anything unimportant, cuz we both didnâ�™t know what to do at Saturday nite..PATHETICâ�¦

Its kool tho, cuz she is my bestfriend hereâ�¦ and at the mall I saw this cute hello kitty dolls but, I didnâ�™t have enough money to buy that..hiks..

After 11pm I went home and check my emailâ�¦my lil cousin(5 years old) just got her teeth removed by the dentist and now she look really funny when shes smile, I cant stop laughing when she open her mounthâ�¦

After that, I talked to my boyfriend and he asked me to online at camfrogâ�¦gosh thatâ�™s really a nice place to chat with camâ�¦ I recommended u to that appâ�¦

We talked until 4pm, im really happy, cuz the last time I saw him before tonight is at Januaryâ�¦I miss him so muchâ�¦ his hair grown so fast and his got this straight and smooth hair, kinda jealous but he is my boyfriend thoâ�¦LOLâ�¦

After laugh out loud with him for about 3 hours, he decided to sleep, and we ended the conversationâ�¦

Now, its my time to reply hundred comments and notes at friendster, myspace, buzznet and vampirefreaksâ�¦its really exhausted but im enjoying making friends everywhereâ�¦

Its 7 am, and I really have to go to sleep nowâ�¦

Thanx for wasting ur time by read this journalâ�¦

C ya tomorrow thenâ�¦

Take careeee!!!

xoxo

got nothing to do today....

Hi there again, today im really glad cuz of 2 things..

The first is, my lecture already accept my paperwork and now I just sit down, relax, and waiting for the exam next week.not relax actually, I have to study and make the power point for the presentation eitherâ�¦ and the second isâ�¦ my friend, (remember bout the friend I told you yesterday), she told me that she is really sorry for all the things that sheâ�™s done to meâ�¦ its really mean a lot to me, and im so thankful, cuz I actually still want to be her friend, and I pray to God if I just have second chance, ill prove her that Im a good friend. Thank you Lord for give her back to meâ�¦.LOL..

Hhmmmm, nowâ�¦what happen today is, i woke up early, called my lecture and ask him weather I can have my paperwork correction now or later, he told me to go to the hospital at 12. so, I take shower and spent my time editing my myspace, buzznet, and vampirefreaks profile. At 11.45 I drove myself to the hospital, and meet up with him. He said that this was the last correction and I donâ�™t have to back to him anymore, and just wait for the exam. After that, I went to the faculty cuz I got this meeting with my friends.i went home about 4 oâ�™clock and check my email.. afer that I read my friend comment for me which she said that she is sorry, after that I went to sleep until 21.00 oâ�™clockâ�¦ I eat cake and browsing the internet agaaaiinâ�¦.

Well, take care for now..i gotta fix my myspace profileâ�¦LOL